Mom

Nine years ago today my mom passed away after a short but horrific battle with stomach cancer.

The year back then was 2001 and our nation had just lived through the largest terrorist attack in history when I got the call from my dad that it was time for me to head back to Germany in order to spend the last days my mom had left with her.

My mom had suffered from stomch ailments as far back as I can remember, always handled them without much complaining and had always bounced back. That’s why we were convinced that she would recover from this latest illness as well.

This time however, fate was against her. Stomach cancer is usually diagnosed in its advanced stages and my mom was no exception. She was not the miracle patient to beat the odds.

ALL cancer sucks!!! But stomach cancer has got to be one of the most brutal forms of this relentless disease.

By the time I got to my mom’s bedside I had not seen her for a year and the last time we had spent together she had been her healthy self. One year later she lay in her hospital bed barely weighing 60 pounds. Three days after I got to her she died in the early morning hours. Without going into the gory medical details of the last three days of her life I can without a moment’s hesitation say that her passing was a relief for both my dad, myself, but especially my poor mom. In fact the moment I had walked into her hospital room and laid eyes on her emaciated body I painfully realized that the sooner she would be relieved from her unimaginable suffering the better. My mom had been tough as nails all of her life and to see her barely able to sit up was more than I could bear. We all expect our parents to leave us one day but nobody should have to go through what my mom had to endure.

Unlike my dad I had not lived through the entire illness with her, the increasing, unbearable pain, the inablity to eat and drink. And so my mom’s death took a while to set in as reality. In fact I did not grief for her for many weeks, even after I had returned home to California.

It was when my dad came to visit us the following Christmas and stepped off the plane all by himself that the finality of what we had been through together that fateful September hit me. The reality of her passing was no more clear than seeing my dad come off the airplane alone.

The first two or three years I missed her increasingly more with each passing month and often caught myself wanting to pick up the phone and talk to her. We had never had the sort of relationship where we needed to talk to each other constantly but not having her to chat at all became harder as time went on.

Naturally as time has passed I don’t actively grief for her as much as I used to but I still miss her and probably always will. Her excitement for for new life experiences, her love for David, her compassion for the underdog, how she cheered me on during sports related endeavors, not to mention her tremendous cooking skills. I even miss how we used to drive each other crazy at times! Good times!

Todays’s Running Tip: There will be no running tip today!

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A long overdue post

A couple of weeks ago I summed up the month of August in statistical terms. I gave the post the appropriate title of awesomeness but not only because my uphill running was successful but mostly because we had visitors that are very dear to me.

My brother-in-law, sister-in-law and nephew came to stay with us for a couple of weeks and good times were upon us. As we do every time they come we counted down the days to their arrival as we throughly enjoy their company. They are true family and if they stayed forever it would still be too short. Growing up as an only child I always yearned for siblings and often wondered what it would be like to have brothers and sisters. And not only was I an only child I was also my grandparents’ only grand child and my aunt and uncle’s only niece (try to digest that!). There were no cousins either. Our family was so small you could fit us all in a mini van. Looking back that might have been a blessing after all because listening to my friends with large families and the tales they have to tell often leave me speechless. And I know for sure that by marrying David I could not have asked for a better extended family if I had picked them myself (oh wait!). From the first time I met them I have gotten along with them brilliantly even though they were the in laws of someone else way back then… Their visit always guarantees good times, filled with laughter and adventure (if Phil can stay awake). Since we live 7000 miles apart we always try to make the best of our time together and this year did no disappoint.

We went on a little road trip

the road led to Sin City

room with a view*

the inside of the Bellagio is always breathtaking even without Danny Ocean and Rusty Ryan

they had to try their luck

living the good life

After a couple of nights in Vegas, which is plenty of time there (!!!), we moved on

the low water level is rather disturbing

yes, we crossed the border… don’t judge me… we did it for the rellies!!!

always spectacular

the Skywalk – my BIL came back white knuckled

After all the excitement we went back home to relax a little…

his very first Margarita – how is that even possible?

… before we headed back out – this time to the coast

Sisters (Anne made me buy those glasses!)

the Wilsons are doing Venice Beach – Phil was most fascinated by the Cannabis clinics on every block

California Dreaming

a well balanced lunch…

…before exploring Rodeo Drive

It certainly was a nice end to a wonderful two weeks, but as always the “Good Bye” came too soon! We miss you! And hope to see you again soon!!! (but no, we will not join you for a Christmas in Wales!!!)

* we stayed at the Vdara, and I can honestly say that this was one of the best hotels I have ever stayed at. Serene, spa like atmosphere, spacious rooms/suites, a state of the art gym, and quiet pool area!

Today’s Running Tip: Running while traveling!

Traveling to new places is a great way to change up your usual running routine. You will have the chance of running a brand new route or trying out the equipment in the hotel gym (in Vegas they had a brand new one with treadmills that had a downhill setting!!!). Be sure to ask for save running trails/routes at the hotel front desk or concierge and always carry ID and a hotel key with you.

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Pier-to-Peak 2010 – The Return to the Mountain

The day started out as almost any other day in beautiful Santa Barbara: with a thick layer of misty fog. And getting up at 4:45am was as awesome as it sounds, especially when you have already been awake for about 45 minutes prior to the alarm sounding its wake up call. After barely three hours interrupted of sleep. Ah yes, race morning! No matter how many times I do this, the lead up to a race always plays out in the same scenario, with slight variations: a fitful night of “sleep”, waking up long before the alarm goes off, rising before the crack of dawn, changing into race clothes that have been laid out the night before in exactly this fashion, followed by an attempt to get some food down while trying to stay warm (the latter of which more often than not fails miserably). Then it’s off to the start with enough time to spare for a last minute pit stop, or two, or three, or… (yes, I’ve been there!) but not too much time as to risk frost bite.

And so I found myself yet again in the back of Wally‘s van at 6am waiting until the last minute to line up for the start of the yearly epic race that takes us from the Santa Barbara pier up to La Cumbre Peak for 13.1 miles and 4000 feet of relentless climbing.

At 6:30am sharp the start gun went off and we made our way through downtown Santa Barbara, a place I called home for nine wonderful years. The first three miles went by fast as we slowly warmed up and made our way passed the Mission and onto Mountain Drive where the first timers get the first taste of things to come. Although Mountain Drive gets fairly steep it still levels out at certain points, small breaks before the fun begins at the bottom of Gibraltar Road. Just as a side note: Gibraltar is the road Lance Armstrong used to ride to train for the Tour de France… By the time we reached Gibraltar we were out of the fog belt and the early morning sun was shining down on us as the terrain turned into the relentless climb this race is famous for. When we reached the turn onto Gibraltar Road I had found a good rhythm, my breathing was under control and my heart rate still relatively low. In other words: I felt good and ready to do this! Miles 4 to 8 are mostly in the shade and although I had definitely broken a sweat I was by no means overheating even as the temperature slowly climbed with each uphill step. Although this section is definitely a steep ascent, there are short, ok, very short, sections that are less steep and give you a bit of a relief. At mile 7 1/2 you reach the famous hair pin, the moment those of us who have run this race before realize that things will get ugly in about 1/2 mile and the first timers believe that at this point most of the race is behind them, when in fact it is really only beginning. The next few miles will separate the tough ones from the tougher ones, the determined from the relentlessly determined, the fools from the foolish fools. The next 1/2 mile after the hair pin passes relatively quickly and before you know it you have reached mile 8, where the shuffle begins. At first the road gets steeper ever so slightly until mile 9. Mile 9 – 10 have some very steep climbs and by the time you get to mile 9 fatigue has usually set in. Some runners start to cramp, some feel the on set of dehydration, many start to walk, all slow down! This is also the part of the course where it leads to the sunny side with very few and short shady spots. What is also interesting is that, with few exceptions, the runners you are with at mile 10 are also the ones you finish with. Between mile 11 and 12 you get a bit of relief as you reach the only downhill part of the entire race. This is the time to enjoy the last breather before the relentless last mile point one! The last mile is brutal and features one of the steepest parts of the race. It also seems to be the longest (don’t argue!) before you finally see the last turn into the park that holds the finish line. And don’t even think that the finish line is flat. Oh, no, you will have to climb it to reach it!

As I do every time I run this race I had a great time. This is by far my most favorite race and I truly run it for the fun of it. This was the first year I ran it without having actually trained on Gibraltar beforehand and I had no idea how things would play out. They went surprisingly well and I actually took my first walk break much later than the last couple of times I ran this. My first stop came at mile 10 at which point I walked for about 1/4 mile. That’s also when I started to feel slightly nauseous and had trouble getting water down. Nothing new, really! I picked up the pace on the downhill from mile 11 – 12 before I started my on and off walking routine from mile 12 to 13. I wanted to reserve some energy for last 1/4 mile and come over the finish line smiling and, most importantly, upright! Both goals were achieved.

The final result: a finish time of 2:23:53, out of 395 runners that finished I placed 101, I was the 17th woman to cross the finish line out of 67 total, and 3rd out of 30 in my age group! Enough to make me happy!

looking onto the early morning Santa Barbara coast line from about 1000 feet

the terrain

running by

still smiling

“Are we there yet?”

and… FINISHED!

Today’s Running Tip: There will be no running tip today!

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Awesome August (in review)

Hey, I woke up this morning and found myself in September! How did that happen? I mean, September! Really? August is really over??? The last month of summer, gone?! Yeah, that noise you are hearing! That is me! Wailing!

Everyone who knows me even slightly also knows just HOW MUCH I LOVE SUMMER!!! Even after moving to the desert full time, I can never get enough of the heat and endless summer days and nights. I love everything about it and this year it did not disappoint: hot, and at times sweaty, and tropical. We had lots of BBQs, play time in the pool, visitors (post to follow), and frozen drinks! Exactly the way I like it! I even managed to continuously run outside, only hitting the treadmill for weekly hill workouts and the occasional morning when the temperatures had already reached 100+ degrees before dawn. It is amazing how you acclimatize to your surroundings. As long as I am well hydrated and carry cool water with me I am just fine. And I know that I will miss these hot, sweaty runs once the temperatures go down this fall (shocking, I know!). Most people who live here full time look forward to this time of year, I am not one of them. I just consider myself lucky that it does not really get “cold” until mid November but I realize that the dog days of summer are behind us and as every year it is bitter sweet. I will never get used to the change into to fall. It is truly my least favorite time of year.

BUT… for now it is only the beginning of September and no tears need to be shed yet. We still have at least another couple of months where we can look forward to balmy days and warmish nights. But the heat, the HEAT is once again behind us.

Before I ramble on further, here are the running stats for August:

Total Distance: 209.81 miles
Total Time: 50:27:20 min
Run Distance: 164.05 miles
Run Time: 21:27:20 min
Walk Distance: 45.76 miles
Walk Time: 14:35:00 min
  • Shortest run: 5.2 miles
  • Longest run: 7.1 miles
  • Average speed: 7:51 min/miles
  • Strength & Endurance: 3:45 hours
  • Yoga: 4 hours
  • Spinning: 6:40 hours

Today’s Running Tip: Hill training on the treadmill!

For those who do not have hills in their neighborhood there is always the option of the treadmill. In order to get a good hill workout in warm up at a zero incline. Then increase the incline by two levels every two minutes until you hit level 12. Run one to two minutes slower than your normal training pace. Descend in the same manner.

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